Beautiful piece from The New York Times: “How long have I got left?”

I was going to finish writing something new this morning, but nothing I could write today could possibly be as beautiful or thoughtful as Paul Kalinithi’s piece in tomorrow’s New York Times. Kalinithi is a chief resident in neurosurgery at Stanford University living with lung cancer. Some of his questions about cancer, time, and career mirror mine as a doctoral student in the humanities. When my life’s work requires such a long-term time investment, how do I deal with a diagnosis that makes the time so short and uncertain?

Kalinithi writes, “I began to realize that coming face to face with my own mortality, in a sense, had changed both nothing and everything. Before my cancer was diagnosed, I knew that someday I would die, but I didn’t know when. After the diagnosis, I knew that someday I would die, but I didn’t know when. But now I knew it acutely. The problem wasn’t really a scientific one. The fact of death is unsettling. Yet there is no other way to live.”

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About Irene Elizabeth (Beth!) Stroud

Queer suburban mom, graduate student, lung cancer survivor, card-carrying United Methodist.
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2 Responses to Beautiful piece from The New York Times: “How long have I got left?”

  1. Tori's avatar Tori says:

    Yes! I grapple with the exact same issues.

  2. Katherine's avatar Katherine says:

    Thank you for sharing this. Someone in my LC support group sent a link and I’ve shared it as far as I can to my circle of peeps. He says this so very well, and since it is such a difficult issue to raise, it is wonderful to have such beautiful thinking to help deal with it. BTW, just learned of your blog about a week ago. Love it and love you for writing it!

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